My Sweet Father-Lord, Where are You?

My Lord Supreme,
May I see Your Beauty's Eye
And
Feel Your Duty's Heart
Everywhere -
Wherever I go.


My Lord Supreme,
May my curiosity about spirituality
Come to an end.
May my heart's sleepless hunger for You
Come to the fore
And make You feel that I am all ready
For You, only for You.


My Lord Supreme,
I have given You this time
Bravely
What I have long cherished:
My mind of confusion-night.
In return, You have given me
What You eternally are:
Your Heart's Compassion-Illumination,
Compassion-Perfection
And
Compassion-Satisfaction.


My Lord Supreme,
In my previous life You wanted me
To be materially successful
And earthly great.
Therefore, You placed me into
A royal family.
But in this incarnation
You are telling me
That to be spiritually rich
Is the most important thing.
If I can be spiritually rich,
Only then will I be able to please You
Most satisfactorily.
My Lord, may Thy Will be fulfilled
As soon as possible in and through me.


My Lord Supreme,
The time has come for me
To please You in Your own way -
To make my surrender and oneness
Complete
In my own secret and sacred heart-room
And
To become a choice instrument of Yours.


My sweet Father-Lord,
Where are You?
How is it that I cannot see You
All the time,
Or at least when I want to see You?
"My sweet child,
You soul and I play hide-and-seek.
We enjoy this game immensely.
Now is the time for you to seek Me
And for Me to hide.
But soon you will try to hide from Me,
And I will seek you out.
Then we shall end
Our hide-and-seek game.
I shall transform your little,
Earthly life-plant
Into a Heaven-blossomed life-tree."


My Lord Supreme,
You have given me a heart
That cries for You.
You have given me a life
That wants to serve You.
But, my Lord, is there any way
That I can run fast, faster, fastest
In my heart of aspiration
And in my life of dedication?
"Yes, My child, there is a way,
And this is very, very simple
And very direct.
This way is the way
Of your gratitude-offering to Me.
The more you can offer
Your gratitude-heart and gratitude-life
To Me,
The sooner you will be able to run
Faster than the fastest
In your heart of aspiration
And in your life of dedication.


My Lord Supreme,
You are telling me that
My heart's inner cry
And
My life's hunger for You
Must have a slow, steady
And unerring pace.
The crown of spirituality
Cannot be achieved overnight,
In the twinkling of an eye.
Slowly, steadily and unerringly,
I shall abide by Your
Compassion-Decision about my life,
For I must be fully ready
Before the God-Hour strikes for me.
Once the God-Hour strikes,
My life has to respond immediately.
My Lord Supreme, from today on
I shall wait for Your Arrival
With the utmost confidence
In Your choice Hour.
May Your Compassion and Satisfaction
Climb up and down
Inside my life's patience-tree.


My Lord Supreme,
When I pray to You,
I see the sky lifting me up
High, higher, highest.
When I meditate on You,
I see the same sky descending
Slowly, steadily and unerringly
And touching my earth-existence
Most compassionately.
My Lord Supreme, You are telling me
Not to be afraid of the Unknown,
But to love the Unknown
And become one with the Unknown,
For this unknown Reality
Will not remain forever unknown,
And my life's perfection
And my heart's satisfaction
Will grow in it.
My Lord, make me ready
And make me worthy
Of Your blessingful Promise to me.


My Lord Supreme,
My mind wants outer education.
My heart wants inner education.
My mind wants to see the Truth
In its own way.
My heart wants to feel the Truth
The way the Truth wants to be known
And felt.
My Lord Supreme,
You want my inner education
To come first and foremost in my life.
Make me strong, make me confident
So that I can please You at every moment
By having You as my only Teacher
In my life's inner school.
I know that when I study
In my heart's school,
You will not only teach me,
But also make me feel
That I will be able to claim
Your infinite Wisdom-Light-Ocean
As my own, very own.


My Lord, my Lord, my Lord, my Lord,
My soul's Lord, my heart's Lord,
My mind's Lord, my vital's Lord,
My body's Lord,
No matter how many times
I have failed You,
I shall never give up.
I shall please You,
I shall please You
In Your own Way,
In Your own Way.
This is my life's only promise
To You, to You, my Lord,
My Beloved Lord Supreme.


My Lord, my Lord, my Lord,
How can I be a perfect instrument
Of Yours?
"My child, do not think of your future,
Do not think of your past,
Do not think of your present.
Just think of this very moment.
Try to see Me second by second,
And not minute by minute,
Not to speak of hour by hour.
Try to see yourself
Inside My own Heart-Garden,
And never desire to see yourself
Inside your own mind-forest.
Behold, My child!
I am declaring to the world at large
That you are My supremely
And eternally chosen instrument
And My proudest perfection-child."


My Lord, my Lord, my Lord,
Do bless me with
Your last-minute Advice.
"My child, My child, My child,
The higher you think of Me,
The longer you think of Me
And
The deeper you think of Me,
The sweeter will be your heart,
The purer will be your mind
And
The easier will be your self-giving to Me.
My child, there shall come a time
In the very near future
When you will come to realise
Who you truly are:
You are the Beauty of My Dream,
You are the Fragrance of My Reality."


May the beauty of the New Year
Beautify my heart.
May the purity of the New Year
Purify my mind.
May the simplicity of the New Year
Simplify my vital.
May the intensity of the New Year
Intensify my body.
May the responsibility of the New Year
Glorify my life.
May only the divinity of the New Year
Fully satisfy me.


My Lord, my Lord, my Lord Supreme,
Do bless me fully and compassionately.
Do give me the soul to sing,
Do give me the heart to smile,
Do give me the eyes to cry,
Do give me the life to hope,
Do give me the breath
To be Your dreamer,
To be Your server
And to be Your lover
Unconditional.


~ Sri Chinmoy